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I was born in Sitka, Alaska in 1983. My parents divorced when I was 5, and I spent my childhood and teens moving back and forth between parents. So, I grew up in Anchorage, Sitka, and Juneau. But, I call Sitka home. I graduated in 2000. I should have gone to college - but didn't. I met my husband in 2002, let him marry me in 2003 :), and had a daughter with him in 2004. She is the pure JOY in our lives. My husband is AD in the United States Coast Guard. This means that life is never boring, and if it is- hey! we get to move every 3 or 4 years. He is currently a DC (Damage Controlman) 2nd class - working on making 1st class. You can also find me on myspace.com/alaskanprincess

06 November, 2008

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I'm posting with symbols, because I can't possibly think of proper titles for any of this.

I went in today for another Beta draw, my # is 24. It's tanked from 140 to 24 so fast...
so fast...

In talking with the nurse at the Ob clinic in Cleveland, she feels Dr.Blackwood (my OB) will more than likely feel that sending me to see the specialist in Memphis would be best for me.

I'm still undecided if I want to go. We don't have much longer here, and I don't want to get halfway through the process, and then up and leave.
I try to think of what might be going on that's causing all of my losses - but it leads me back to, if anything is wrong, why was I able to carry to term (ok, ok, 3 weeks shy of term) a healthy baby girl, with no "defects" and no treatment or assistance? If anyone has any ideas on that, feel free to share.. cause I can't figure it out.

2 comments:

Zach and Beth said...

I don't know why you are having problems now. I would suggest going ahead and seeing the specialist in Memphis though. He/she can go ahead and try to get this figured out and get a course of action set. Then when you move, you can just fill in your new Dr and pick up where you left off. I understand if you want to take a break though for your sanity. Huge hugs for you. I'm so sorry. If you ever need to talk, I'm here.

PamTremain said...

See the doc in Memphis. It can only help. Some things will never make sense. Why was it so easy once... and now, not? I constantly questioned myself when I was pregnant with a high risk baby with a problem. I did everything I could on my end. Vitamins, eat, excersize... sometimes we can only do something. Big Hugs. Prayers for you from far away!