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I was born in Sitka, Alaska in 1983. My parents divorced when I was 5, and I spent my childhood and teens moving back and forth between parents. So, I grew up in Anchorage, Sitka, and Juneau. But, I call Sitka home. I graduated in 2000. I should have gone to college - but didn't. I met my husband in 2002, let him marry me in 2003 :), and had a daughter with him in 2004. She is the pure JOY in our lives. My husband is AD in the United States Coast Guard. This means that life is never boring, and if it is- hey! we get to move every 3 or 4 years. He is currently a DC (Damage Controlman) 2nd class - working on making 1st class. You can also find me on myspace.com/alaskanprincess

28 April, 2008

Who'da Thunk...

So, I did a little reading on Pregnancy tests last night.
Yes, I was bored.
I even went to consumer reports.com and read some reviews, Lol. Turns out, First Response is the #1 test. Sweetness, but I hate paying 15$ for two tests. It's like... literally pissing money away.
I had started a thread on a Forum I'm a member of asking about pregnancy tests. I was unsure if really, you had to pay more for better quality.
A suggestion that was in a reply, was ordering tests online. I looked around and did some comparing. Got a better jist of exactly how pregnancy tests work.
I found a great site, where the more tests you ordered, the cheaper they were.
All in all, I got 20 tests, a collection cup along with free shipping for a grand total of about $14
... and you know I'm gonna hafta pee on one as soon as they get in - you know, just to see how they work :)
Should be sometime this week!

26 April, 2008

Waiting Is The Hardest Part

You know you'll be humming that song with me now ;)

2WW. It's the hardest part. I just wanna run out, spend a fortune on pregnancy tests, and start peeing on those glorious little sticks right now!
But, I'm forcing myself to wait. For at LEAST another week.
If I was REALLY playing this little 2WW game smart, I wouldn't test until AFTER my period was due. But you and I both know, there's no way that I will have the patience to wait that long.
Suspense kills me, I have to know!
The other crappy part about the 2WW in a way, IS taking the pregnancy tests. I feel like, for TTC'ers, taking pregnancy tests is like being on a diet and stepping on a scale. It can make or break your entire day. In fact, there are women that after years and years of nothing but "negative" results showing up on the PG tests, REFUSE to take them.
They'll pay the money to go in for a blood test.
I don't blame them a bit.

25 April, 2008

EWCM! EWCM!

Yes, yes, yes. We have EWCM.
Now, while this isn't a very exciting thing... ok, ok fine, it's kind yucky... to most of you. It is TERRIBLY exciting to me.
EWCM = Egg. White. Cervical. Mucous.
It's when the Va-jayjay is sperm friendly, and when you're ovulating.
VERY desireable for baby makin' :)

I've been "checking" for months now, and have NEVER had EWCM.
One month on Clomid and BAM! Hello mama.

We have now officially entered the 2WW (2 Week Wait).

23 April, 2008

Cup Lovin' and Baby Makin'...

So, I left off with DH leaving some love in a cup.
He did, and the results came back. DH's swimmers are fine! It's weird how news like that can make you feel relieved and... not relieved at the same time.
I know he felt the same way, because the first thing he did was wrap his arms around me and tell me "I'm sorry".
There wasn't a need for him to be, but he knew that I was going to have to be guinea pigged further. Time for big girl panties, right?
I was, to tell you the truth, ecstatic about DH's lil guys being fine. I know it's a lot easier, and there are more options to "fix" reproductive problems with females versus males.

So, with that I made an appointment to see my PCM and tell her that I needed to take a step in another direction. She gave me a referral to see a Gyno about an hour out of town.

I was nervous like you wouldn't believe, but this guy was so nice and so understanding. He was patient, and listened to what I had to say without telling me the things I had been hearing for the past two years:
"You just need to relax"
"It'll happen when it happens"
"It's all in God's hands"
"Maybe your body just isn't ready yet"
"Can't you just appreciate the daughter you already have?"
"Why are you in such a rush?"
... which was usually followed by a surprised "really? You've been trying for two years?" Shows you how much people really pay attention before they rattle off some little blurb that they think will console you, and solve your problems *eye roll*

After speaking with the Gyno, I was prescribed Clomid.
What a fun little pill. You take it on certain days of your cycle and it magically (ok, maybe not magically) aids your body in ovulation.

Along with some seriously FUN side effects.
Hot Flashes
Nausea
Bitchiness
Dizzyness
and my favorite...
Headaches !

Yes, it has been a wonderful month LOL.

I was directed to take the Clomid for the duration of 4 months. If I am not pregnant by that time, I will go back to see the Gyno and he will refer me to Memphis TN to see another specialist up there.
I have a good feeling about this Clomid though, let's keep our fingers crossed!

01 March, 2008

At least someone has listened

Thursday the Husband and I went in to our appointment. I was relieved that I wasn't feeling like I had to convince the nurse practitioner that something needed to be looked in to. I've felt that way in the past, and the brushings off have made me really bitter.
As it stands right now, Husband and I have been referred and are waiting for a phone call setting up an appointment with a fertility clinic. Husband is gonna get to leave some love in a cup, and we're gonna go from there.

29 February, 2008

My First Entry

This is just a brief blog - I'm sure more details will follow :)

Currently, DH and I are having trouble getting pregnant. I am 25, he is 29 and we've been trying for 2 years. We do presently have a daughter that was born in 2004 - so the comfort of knowing that we are capable of biologically making a child and I am capable of carrying it to term make me wonder - is it fair to say that we are having fertility issues?
Online I read over and over as if it's mocking me "fertility issues are when you fail to get pregnant after one year of unprotected, well times sex".
*throwing hands up in the air* Don't be afraid to make me feel a little more pressure guys!
When 18 months had passed, I made myself an appointment at the local clinic so that I could talk to someone about the length of time that had passed with no BFP. It was actually suprising to me because the first time DH and I got pregnant it was a little slip. It ended in a miscarriage at 9 weeks. We got pregnant with DD 4 months later. With everything I went thru with that miscarriage, and the sucessful carrying and birth of my daughter I thought I was out of those dark woods.
Lately though, I'm getting the feeling that I am not.
Back to the appointment at the clinic - I was a bit irritated when I found out I was speaking with a nurse practicioner. NOTHING against them - I just wanted to see a Doctor. She told me that the reason I was most likely not getting pregnant was because I was under the stress of being new to town. Now, while I can understand this to a certain point - it just doesn't make sense to me that it would prevent me from pregnancy for two years. Don't get me wrong, I have stress in my life - but not THAT much.
I'm confused on where to go from here.
~More Later